Thursday, October 15, 2009

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

stoked on life...

the weather is beginning to be brisk in the mornings and i love it. and i love how God totally knows my heart. last night i and a friend were talking about our prayer lives and how we long for such a deeper relationship with God. and today at morning prayer all the things that we had talked about were topics for morning prayer. and the correction we must take to fix a broken prayer life. i pray sometimes and just start rambling and thinking about dumb things.(that really don't matter) but God just revealed to me that he is in control and i need to surrender my all to him. its an amazing feeling to be restored in God. by his love and grace i am his. and no matter what i do in life he will always be by me to help me grow in him. i am stoked and humbled at his works. i feel foolish for tryin to do things on my own sometimes, i am learning to let go and lay it down at His feet. ALOHA 

Thursday, September 10, 2009

laundry mat...

i have never been to a laundry mat before today. it is kind of gnarly. they way everything functions and will take some getting used to. not to mention that i am a bit of a germaphob but i will get over it. its a small price you pay to live on this island. but thinking about dirty laundry we all carry some dirty laundry and i find it so amazing that no matter what stains we have God has made us clean. that just blows my mind. no matter what i've done in life his love still remains and he can clean a heart that once was consumed by sin. don't get behind on your spitirual dirty laundry, God is waiting for you to run to him. He will cleanse you and make you new. there is no stain that cant be undone. love lo lo

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

in love...

i am falling in love with island with every passing day. but more importantly i am falling in love with God. this past week i have been all over this island enjoy Gods creations. i slept on the beach with no tent under the stars with the waves crashing in the background. it was wonderful laying my head to rest and feeling so close to God. we were sharing a night under the stars. it was an amazing night. the next day i went to the north shore and snorkeled and enjoyed to fish in the sea. i love that everywhere were we look there is beauty to be enjoyed. each thing is so intricatly designed and amazing that i know there is a God. God has made each of us wonderfully. i love that nature speaks to my heart and draws me near to God. Keep reading for weekely updates and this Girl seeking God. love all

Friday, August 28, 2009

Surreal....

i woke up today and life feels almost so surreal. i look out a tent now and see and amazing view that God provided for our enjoyment. its mind blowing when you think about the power God holds. he truly is amazing. i feel so blessed to be in kauai learning more about serving the people of this world. i registered for classes and am very excited and to be honest a little overwhelmed. but no worries cause God is in control.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

new beginning...


today is a new chapter in my life. i am to arrive at Kauai calvary chapel Bible college around 4 today. i am so excited and ready for this new life. I am ready and eager to learn about God and the plans he has for my life. life is always crazy there is always one thing or another that takes us by suprise but no matter what goes on God is in control. so am i nervous about this very new experience. no i am way excited. i know that this is where i need to be. these next 2 years are goin to be an amazing growing experience for me and the Big man upstairs. i am ready and this journey starts now.....

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

new journey...

today is my last day on the mainland. it is a bittersweet day for me. i am so excited for the journey that lies ahead but saddened to leave the ones i love behind. but this isnt goodbye its i'll be seeing you. God has a plan for my life and that is what i find rest in. im not afraid, i am excited and at peace with where God is leading me. I feel that the next 2 years of my life will be an amazing journey and can't wait for it to begin.

Friday, April 10, 2009

Crying in baseball...


there is crying in baseball. early thursday morning a young life was taken. Nick Adenhardt was a pitcher for the Anaheim Angels. He had pitched the night before, He pitched six innings with no hitters. Amazing. after the game telling mike he finally felt like a big leauger. he was a young man full of talent and his life was cut short. it was cut short by a drunk driver. the driver hit nicks car and killed him and two other young lives. this breaks my heart. i didn't know him personally but i am a huge angel fan and am very saddened by all this. next time you think about drinking and driving don't your life isnt the only one at stake. my thoughts and prayers go out to everyone having a hard time coping with the loss of Nick. 

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Plan for my life.

I received good news a few weeks ago. i got into a christian college in Kauai. and i am so excited for the plans God has for my life. i feel at complete peace with God's plan for my life. he seriously is an amazing God. i couldn't imagine my life without him. i lived the best of both worlds and i can honestly say life with God in the center of it is so much better than life based on the world and material things. i am stoked to go out into the world and be used by God.

Monday, March 23, 2009

family...

i love family. God was thinking when he gave us families to laugh and cry with. and to look to for support. my cousins who i love dearly came to visit for spring break. and i love seeing them. because no matter how long it is since the last time we see them we pick up right where we left of. we are close and full of excitement. and happy to be together. sarcastic remarks fly but it is all out of love and fun. so thankful for family. thank you God. 

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

2 corinthians 12:9

he said to me," My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." so therefore i will boast all the more about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. todays society views weakness as a negative thing. but showing flaws and weakness shows who we really our. nothing is hidden in weakness and in that weakness God's power rests on us. that is some pretty exciting news. don't hide weaknesses for God uses the weak to lead the strong. for in my weakness i will no longer be afraid to show it for God's power is upon me. 

Monday, March 16, 2009

busy....

today was a busy day. work was so hectic at some point i became very bitter and annoyed. i actually had to step back and say no lo this isnt you. smile share the love. i needed to change my attitude and give it up to God. i came home from work and needed to just step back and focus on changes i needed to make. and since then tonight God has revealed so much to me. opening my heart to new things and experiences. through all this i believe he is teaching me the importance of trust. falling backwards and not being worried about who is goin to catch me. because God is always going to be there to help me through the busy life i lead. Constantly GROWING.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Grow...

growing. spring is here and i want to grow each day in God more and more. i love how amazing he is. thankful for sundays and the blessings and struggles he gives.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

forever stoked...




excited to fall into the unknown. i jumping into unexplored water.
and as scary as it is i find comfort in God. he has a plan for my life
better then i could ever imagine. and that is what i am resting in.
i am trusting that he will place me where he wants me. i find insane
peace in him and am so stoked on Him. trust him he has big plans for 
you too.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

lies...


don't do it. it just leaves you trying to remember what you said or didn't say or didn't say. and it hurts the people you love.  tell the truth people may not always agree with you but the truth is always better than a lie. 

Friday, March 6, 2009

a Very WISE women.... Love you Grams


told me throughout my childhood its not about whats on the outside, its about whats on the inside. in todays society we often forget that true beauty lies within. it breaks my heart that young girls feel the pressure to look a certain way, and leaves them feeling as if their never good enough. not even just young girls really, older women feel the pressure to look young and youthful with anti-wrinkle cream, botox, face lifts. but to all my women bloggers young and old know this, that you can have all the looks in the world, but if your heart is ugly all that outer beauty is useless and will only get you so far. embrace your inner beauty, that beauty will outshine the outer beauty and people will see you as a TRULY beautiful person.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Photo Booth

Having a bad day. this will change everything. sometimes when i need to laugh i bust out the mac photo booth it brings a smile to my face everytime. haha. laughter is the best medicine. don't worry mom you look way better than me haha love you
hope that made your day.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Moms..

Moms are amazing. i am so blessed with a mother such as mine. besides my sister and JC she and my dad have become my best friend. they are always there to talk to. i am facing a tough decision in my life right now and my mom offered wisdom and love to me. the love that she gives puts my heart at ease. knowing that family is praying for you in the midst of life changing decisions is a true blessing. my heart is still unsure, but i feel as if it is being lead by God. He has a plan for my life and as hard as it is to sacrifice things that mean the world to you sometimes thats what we are called to do. To give ourselves completely to him. thank you mom for loving me as you do. God knew what he was doing when he blessed me with a mother like you. <3

Monday, March 2, 2009

A New Song...


i have struggles me and the Lord are attacking and trying to conquer. one of the struggles kept popping in this brain of mine. i needed to meet God and offer him all that i was. Body, MIND, and soul. so today while i was at work i found myself singing songs to God to keep him on my mind rather than myself and my problems. not a worship song from church but a song from the depths of my heart. i pulled beats from different songs and just worshiped God. it was amazing how i felt Gods presence within my soul. i felt happier and more refreshed for the day. my mind strayed at times but like i said its a struggling in which i am working on. sometimes we forget that God wants sincere songs from our hearts. i know i do. try it today sing your own song praising God for his greatness. you will be amazed at the deep beats that come flowing out. 

Sunday, March 1, 2009

SUNDAY...


Sunday is a great day. i love how amazing God is. i had an ok day, i was focusing on something that really shouldn't matter to me which was bringing me down. i found myself asking why?  while asking why? God revealed to me the areas of my life that i wasn't giving fully to him. and the thing i was struggling with was exactly that, the area in which i need work. i need to trust God completely with EVERYTHING that i am. because i am a sinner its not always easy to give it all up to God. but the sooner i do the better off i will be. I am LEARNING to let go and LET GOD.

Saturday, February 28, 2009

Fever Pitch




"You love the socks, but have they ever loved you back?" how often do you direct love towards things that don't love you back. Hobbies, work, sports, there is nothing wrong with these things but when we put them befor our family, friends, spouses and most importantly God. it pushes us away from them and a gap starts to form and it takes time to build a bridge between that gap. so take the time to evaluate what takes up your time, maybe you have to do a little reevaluating. love what Loves you back. God and the many blessings he gives deserves all our time and energy.

Friday, February 27, 2009

thankful for my sister.


she is a total blessing. since moving out we have grown closer than before. we have shared tears through tough times. we have shared laughs through our dorky humor, and pure stupidity. and we have shared crutches. where one is weak the other is there to help us through. i thank God for the sister he gave me and for parents who taught me to never go to bed angry with her. so excited to spend the night with my sister. Girls night. if you have a sister and havent talked in awhile call her i am sure she would love to hear from you. sisters are one of Gods many blessings in a world of chaos.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

i Wanna WORSHIP you...

" the soul represents the deepest part of who we are. that's the level on which God wants to relate to you, the point at which we meet him in worship." what does its mean to be a worshiper of Christ, is something i found myself wondering today? is it worshiping God on sundays and the rest of the week its you and what you've got going on in your life. well the truth is that worship isn't just a sundya routine its a LIFESTYLE. something that we should do everyday with everything that we are. so when we are working our glamorous jobs and all we really want is to go home, we are to worship God. with our attitudes and give 100 percent of ourselves to worship God through our work. OUCH!!! but when we do this each day it prepares our hearts to come into God's presence. what does this mean to worship God daily? a worship session in our house with guitars and singing? no it means offering time up to God. spending time with just him through prayer, song, silence, and giving all that you are to God. Praising him for the blessings and struggles we face in life. offering our soul to God and meeting him on a real soulful level. today i found my soul longing to be on that real level, a daily worshiper. giving every breath i have to worship God. since i am not perfect it wont always be easy to do but it is something i'm longing for to better my life. there is always room for the soul to grow. still just a girl seeking all that God has in store for my LIFE.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Weakness...

its hard at times to count the blessings you have especially during these rough times. But in these times of weakness God makes us strong. I always find comfort in THE WORD that God uses the weak to lead the strong and no matter how weak I think I am God gives me these struggles because he knows I am strong enough. Its hard at times for me to trust him 100 percent. But when I look back the times that i trust God 100 percent everything turned out better then ok. and sometimes we can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. But when we look to God the dim light starts to shine through. And sometimes we ask why it didn't work out? but i'm not worried cause if it didn't or doesn't work out its because its not what the big man upstairs wants for my life. Today i took a deep breath and stepped back from the unsure things in my life and i am leaving them at his feet. For he is in control.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

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Love....


can change the world. There are so many ways to show love. Its more than a four letter word its an action. You can show love in so many ways. Giving to those less fortunate, helping older people struggling down the bread isle, a simple smile. The list could go on for days. But I think a lot of us have lost sight of love. we are so focused on ourselves that we forget about love. and the wonderful effect it can have on ourselves and the people around us. So today remember that love can change the world for the better and it starts with you.